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A new beginning
Divorced, starting again and learning to listen to what I really wanted.
My story
Starting again
at 36.
I share this because I needed to hear stories like mine when I was in the thick of it.
I thought I’d missed it.
I separated from my first husband when I was 36. I longed to become a mother, and we wanted different things from our lives. Walking away was a strange combination of heartbreak and relief.
For a while, I felt completely lost. Friends were having babies, and I was starting again. I wondered whether I’d missed my chance at a life partner, a family and the life I had imagined.
I had absorbed the idea that life was supposed to happen according to a certain timeline. Letting go of that took time.
Holding the dream.
Loving today.
I was teaching yoga, moving my body, dating, opening my heart and breaking it again. Slowly, I learned to come back to the life that was actually in front of me.
I still dreamed. I still held onto hope. But there was joy and meaning available to me right then, too. Savouring the life I already had became a daily practice.
The chapter I couldn’t see yet
Then I got on
a plane to Bali.
I decided, at the last minute, to attend a yoga training. I wasn’t getting on that plane thinking I was about to meet the man I’d build a family with.
And there he was. Craig.
We aligned in the ways that mattered to me. Meeting him brought my longing for a family back, and the story I thought might already be over began to look very different.
MY STORY IN NUMBERS
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Meeting Craig
A last-minute yoga training in Bali, and there he was.
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Becoming a mom
Our daughter was born in 2020. Holding her was wild and beautiful.
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Our family grew
Our son arrived in 2024. I got to experience that love all over again.
Why I share
A story can make
us feel less alone.
I hear from women who are starting over, waiting, or feeling as though everyone else has moved ahead. I know that feeling.
I can’t tell another woman exactly how her story will unfold. I can tell her how mine did.
Yoga was my world through my 30s. When I became a mom, that shifted into women's circles, where I spent years holding space for other women, and then Human Design. Now I bring all of that into my writing, my podcast and my mentoring.